Mothers Day.

Its group (((HUG))) time for all the parents out there who have lost a child, Mothers day is a hard one not only for us mums but also for our hubby's other children and family because they're watching us and hoping and praying that we get through it ok.

I've been blessed with that amazing 'calm' today, the one that kicks in just when I need it. The day started with church, I love my new church I can't wait to get there on a Sunday and I thoroughly enjoy every single moment of it. Colin our pastor is really passionate and although I struggle to remember everything he says I can always relate to the message. I'm so glad to be one of many who have God in their lives, thats what my 'calm' is its His peace that is helping me through possibly the worst thing that could happen to a parent, to lose a child. I first experienced it when Chris was taken into hospital last March and it wasn't like anything I've ever felt before. I didnt analyse it at the time but I knew that many people were praying for Chris and also for me Mike and John to be given strength and peace. My friend would text me with reference to a particular reading or psalm in the bible and I spent every evening reading them, it was a great comfort. I had my calm many times when Chris was ill and it enabled me to be with him every minute of every day, I had it the day of his funeral on my birthday on Christmas Day and I have it today. Thank you God.

Last years Mothers day card from Mike and Chris had to be dug out today, I couldn't resist and the words in it are wonderful, ok I know its what is printed but they assured me they pick the cards for the verse, it says.

I dont know if you realise how much I admire you, but I do. You've been such a wonderful inspiration to me ~ not just in the way you support and encourage me, but in the way you live every facet of your own life...

I've learned from you ~ what it means to be truly giving and caring, how important it is to be fair and understanding of others, how to believe in myself and be the best I can be...

Your example has shaped the way I think and feel and believe. You've been such a positive influence in my life Mum, and on Mothers Day I just thought you should know how much you mean to me....

My boy's inspire me to live my life and not waste one second of it.

Today Mike has given me the biggest card I have ever seen and a gorgeous teddy wearing a really silly hat (hats are my thing) and yesterday I got a surprise gift from our Mike's ex fiance who I love to bits, the card with it said 'To one very special lady'.

How blessed am I...............eh!!

Note to myself today is the 2nd but I started this blog yesterday.