Day one of LOVE.

I got out of bed this morning and said to myself its day 1 so what are you going to say out loud. The answer was YAAAAY!! its not raining, mission accomplished. Not one human being gave me cause for any agro but my pc did and I thought to myself, now then do I have to love my pc when it won't let me go online for the hundredth time. A confession must follow here, I mangled my glasses last time it booted me in the middle of an email, a very important very long email that was now lost in cyber space. I remembered Neils words, calmly shut it down and went out shopping for stuff for the barbie, high five to me for the non anger thing.

Now for something very close to my heart, if anyone reading this prays would you please say one for my lifelong friend who I love dearly, she's waiting on a diagnosis and its a very worrying time for her. Just say I pray that Sue's friend doesn't have anything seriously wrong with her.

Thank you loads.

Love.

I Loved today’s service.

Neil, today’s speaker is a member of our church, he’s a young guy and has a style different to Colin our pastor, he’s every bit as passionate but in a way of his own. I love it when Col is speaking but I also thoroughly enjoy the contrast and style of others from time to time.

Today the service was about love and how to learn to respond to people who hurt, anger, annoy us etc…Its very hard to turn to somebody who has just insulted or wronged you and tell them ‘I’ll pray for your release from anger’ or ‘its okay I forgive you’ because when you feel hurt and upset, its so much easier to hit right back, it gives a quick release from the sting of the hurt they inflicted on you. I don’t know about anyone else but way back when I did rise to such situations it always made me feel worse doing the tit-for-tat thing.

I feel Blessed that anger doesn’t have a hold on me and I find loving and forgiving quite easy, but that’s something I’ll be testing out over the next month because Neil challenged us all to consciously get up every morning for a month and start the day on a happy note regardless of what is going on. Also when insulted, hurt or angered we should stop and think and try to give the opposite response of what comes natural, which is to slap the said insulter. I’m not too sure what I’ll say exactly when and if somebody hurts me as I honestly can’t remember the last time anyone was nasty to me so I’m well out of practise.

Angry person – Hey you, I think you’re a liar and a waste of space.
Me – Would you like tea or coffee.(with your arsenic)

Seriously though Love Thy Neighbour is the second most important thing to God, the first being to love God himself so I'm going to try it and see starting tomorrow.

1 Corinthians 13

Reality sucks sometimes.

Sometimes it suddenly hits you that this is real, you really have had to say goodbye to one of your children and it shocks you all over again. One of my coping mechanisms is to keep busy and not think too deeply about Chris not physically being here, but we're planning a get together with family and friends soon and he won't be there. Reality hurts a lot.

I pray that God continues to give me the strength to see the 'good' in life as He has done so far. Its not always easy to maintain the close relationship I have with God, but everything rights itself once its back on track.

I miss you so much my lovely son.

Busy doing things.

Lots of things in the pipeline at the moment and I'm doing ok. Praise God.

We've chosen a sketch of Chris's to be put on the wall at the cf unit and I finally got it to Marion this morning to be framed - sorted.

I'm going to be baptised at my new church sometime in the next month or so, its a bit of a mission to get a firm date at the moment because there are certain important (to me) people I want to be there and this is the holiday season. I'll be knocking one of the things off my 1-10 list on that day too as I'll be talking in public for the very first time in my life and I am very nervous, but I've written a testimonial because I beleive my story is meant to be shared.

Our church (King's Wirral) is taking part in a big event in Birkenhead Park which I am really looking forward to because several Wirral churches will be getting together and among other things we'll be singing.......YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll be blogging about that day after the event.

Thats all for now, today is a gardening day, life is good.