Reality sucks sometimes.

Sometimes it suddenly hits you that this is real, you really have had to say goodbye to one of your children and it shocks you all over again. One of my coping mechanisms is to keep busy and not think too deeply about Chris not physically being here, but we're planning a get together with family and friends soon and he won't be there. Reality hurts a lot.

I pray that God continues to give me the strength to see the 'good' in life as He has done so far. Its not always easy to maintain the close relationship I have with God, but everything rights itself once its back on track.

I miss you so much my lovely son.